This post was written while I was reading some depressing stuff on wattpad. It got me thinking about those dark feelings that everyone has, and that was the inspiration for this paragraph.

We cut ourselves to prove we feel pain. We starve ourselves to prove we are not overweight. We lock ourselves in our rooms not to prove anything but to see whether anyone really cares about us. To others we are misfits. To ourselves we are nothing. We stand alone in a world of hate. Facing the judging stares and whispers of those around us. We cover our scars with sweaters or long-sleeved shirts. We put on a smile to hide how we truly feel. They do not see the tears running down our cheeks. They do not see the hatred in our eyes. They are oblivious to how we truly feel. They try to help but only make it worse. The only people that understand us are our inner demons.

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This is just a post about how emotions don’t necessarily lead to the expected reaction.

Whats amazing and whats absolutely hideous? Everyone thinks they know what’s true or false, but if what I’m saying is true, or maybe its not that’s exactly my point. We don’t know anything about anything. We say that we are smart and we say that we are brave. That if we stand up for ourselves we’ll be heroes. But how do we know that that isn’t all a lie? How do we know heroes are not just cowards that do what they do to save their own skin? Life is one big paradox.  Hatred to sorrow to happiness and so on. We are living a lie. A great big lie with no truth. Love is the opposite of hate yet love can lead someone to hate you. Sadness is the opposite of happiness yet sad moments are remembered forever, and happy moments are forgotten in an instant. Anger is the opposite of calm yet someones calm demeanor can anger someone beyond control. If this is the truth then how can people tell us whats wrong and what’s right?

This is my first post. It was inspired by a book I read last night.

He plays the music of his soul. Dark and lonely music that captures your heart. When you hear it you say ” How wonderful ”. You say it with joy, never thinking of how much misery the song holds. But why would a man with such talent be so sad? You do not know. Wouldn’t The fact that everyone loves his music Bring him joy? When you ask him, he says ” It is better to feel sadness than nothing at all ”. Then he leaves you to ponder the words he has just said. You then realize what he says is true. It is better be filled with misery than to be absolutely heartless. You no longer question his emotions because you understand why he feels them. The day he told you the reason for his misery, he shared with you his sadness. You understand  now why some people are happy while others are sad. For the rest of your life, you no longer question it. But you never forgot the beautiful song he played and the weight it held.