Check up at midnight

So… based on a conversation I had, and I don’t know how much I like it, but I like my sentence structure at least.


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My love is a pestering, repetitive kind of love. A text me when you get home, don’t forget your gloves, show me where it hurts kind of love. And sorry, I’m sorry, I know it’s too much. And sorry, I’m sorry, I know five texts is four too many. But what if you forgot to take your medicine tonight? What if you had a bad day and need some cheering up? What if you need me? I’ve been told I come off desperate, I come off annoying and lonely, and maybe I am all those things and more. I need to make sure you got home safely though, and that you remembered to eat lunch today, and that your nightmares don’t wake you up again in the dark. My love is the check up on you at midnight kind of love, because what if I’m the only one who does?

Statistics

So this started with being upset about all that Remembrance Day brings, and ended with being upset about the state of the world right now, because it’s absolutely insane.


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You know what I feel so goddamn guilty for keeping up with the statistics. 60 thousand of our men died but I couldn’t name a single name for you. It’s true what they say, one death is a tragedy, 100 becomes a statistic. It’s absolutely terrible. I feel as though I’m erasing the pain of every little girl who looked up at her mom’s tear-streaked face and realized she was never going to see her brother again. I’m helping erase the grief all of these families went through as they could feel their loved ones being forgotten, and I can’t do a damn thing about it. The sad thing is that we’re used to it. Shootings happen multiple times a week now and the world might as well be crumbling in our fingers, but we’ve become so desensitized to this ridiculousness that we can’t grieve all these people, all these things that are happening because we’d never finish.

 

Killing time

Super random, I was in the mood for pretty words so I created my own. I’m really having trouble writing music for honestly like the past two years though so I need to figure out a way to break my slump. Also I didn’t want to call this “Honestly, honey,” so I didn’t, so shush. Killing time is totally a viable alternative.


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Honestly, honey, I know we’re just killing time in each other’s arms, but why can’t this last forever? I mean, I know, life gets in the way, I know we need to grow up, I know it’ll end, but come on, couldn’t we just try? We’re in love, right? That should be enough, right? I mean, I know it’s not, but we can dream, right? Honestly, honey, I know our today won’t last ‘till tomorrow. Honestly, honey, I know one of these kisses will be our last. Honestly, honey, I know we’re just a ticking time bomb. Let’s just hold each other for our now, because honestly, honey, why should we stop?