Hello hello everyone!! 2020 is almost over and DEAR GOD are we ready for it to be in the history books and over already! I know I am. Geez I really really hope 2021 is better because I don’t know what I’ll do if it isn’t! Here’s something I wrote for the new year!

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I have been here before. It’s always the same story with a new ending, someone’s final hope at redemption and my longing for salvation. This is the last time I will be here, in this chair, waiting for the clock to strike twelve, painting my lips red with ambition for the new year. I will not stain anyone else’s lips tonight.

This time might be different, I think. There is no boy on my arm tonight, and I’m not wishing on behalf of anyone but myself. I think that’s a good thing. I’m happier this time around, some colour’s come back to my cheeks and the world feels softer at the edges. I don’t need to sully some boy’s collar tonight, I’m taking myself back from the world, sitting up. I have fought through sixteen and seventeen, watch me keep going. This is my fight. See me smile.