Red

Meh. Don’t love this one, but I like the concept, so it’s going on here. Notice how I don’t actually say the word red in the whole piece of writing? You would have thought it anyways.


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The colour of bloody knees and scraped elbows, falling off her bike and band-aids.

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The colour of silly secrets and pursed lips, mistakes and punishments, and a swirling childish mind.

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The colour of the words being thrown like weapons downstairs while she cowers, hanging onto the railing, watching them clash angrily in the air before her.

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The colour of her cheek after she misbehaved, waves of heat and humiliation radiating from her face, the colour of a silent promise to herself, “This is the last time.”

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The colour of the whispers heard from her pillow, hours after she was supposed to be asleep, furious and weighted, hearing the same words again and again, “But what about them?” and knowing they were never really asking.

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The colour of her puffy eyes after the news, being told again and again not to tell the other, perhaps to make certain she picked a side, the wrong side.

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The colour of sunsets and slow adjustments, frustrations and wrathful words flung like bullets in the midst of a war.

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The colour of passions and lips and flushed cheeks and unwanted roses, the colour of heartbreak and feeling smaller than ever before.

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The colour of the words written in bloody ink, emptying the hurt from eyes that have already seen too much, felt too deeply, cared too much.

Anaesthetic

Okay, so I don’t love it, but I’ve been wanting to do something with the idea of an anaesthetic for a while now, so here it is.


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I’m told to find my anaesthetic
But I’m not sure what that may be
Because the boy who gives me solace
Is the same boy who makes me bleed

When my heart is tired of aching
And my eyes are raw and red
When my head weighs 20 tonnes
He helps empty out the lead

But what if he’s the one who hurts me
He’s the one who makes me cry
What then, when I’m missing my drug
The thing that gets me by?

I’m told to find my anaesthetic
I guess I’ll watch him grow
Sometimes poison sometimes remedy
Which is when, I’ll never know

Crowd

Here’s another one of my Just thinking posts, and these are really very aptly named, because they really are just whatever I’m thinking about at that moment.


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How do you pick out a good person from a crowd? It seems like you can always come up with excuses for people. If they never ask about you you can tell yourself that they’re busy and just forgot to check in. If they lash out you blame it on the things they’ve been going through lately, tell yourself that they’ll be back to normal later when this passes. If they’re using you you can tell yourself they aren’t really, that it’s you they want, but deep down you know it’s not true. So maybe it’s a deep down feeling you have to trust. Maybe whatever you feel in your heart, deep down past the blood pulsing through your veins, maybe that’s what you listen to. But can’t your heart be deceived as well? Isn’t it usually your heart that does the deceiving? If it is, then what are we doing telling little girls and boys to listen to their hearts when their hearts will only lead them on a path of pain and deceit? Why do we set them up for heartache from the very beginning? Because if we can’t pick out a good person from a crowd, then who are we to call ourselves good? 

Breathe

A little short thing I wrote… I quite like it.


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Breathe.

In… and out. In… and out.
Remember the rules:
Steady chest, steady breath
And whatever you do,
Don’t forget to inhale.
Because that’s all you need to stay alive
All you need.
Just
Keep
Breathing.